Judgmental World

Why does everyone have to judge me and be so critical?

I hate it when people judge me, because they don't have the right to judge me whatsoever. Recently, shit has been going on behind my back, and god knows what's going on. Backstabbing, rumours, all that kind of shit. We're not 13 anymore, I think rumours about who's going out with who can stop now.

My gf bitched at me for no reason. Well, she didn't bitch at me, she bitched about my freelance translation for the Foreign Language Press of China. She said I was conceited because I was only freelancing for them in order to gain fame and make my resume look better. Well, yes and no. The FLP of China is a prestigious publishing house, no doubt about that, and I feel delighted to be able to freelance for them in return for fame and big sums of money. The work can be excruiciating sometimes, but it's nowhere near exploitation. I translate for some of the most prolific and bigshot authors in China, and I enjoy working with fiction. Conceited? I had no idea which nostril my gf pulled that from. Now she's not talking to me. Sigh.

There has been constant problems lately both surrounding school and home. I can't even begin to explain what is happening. All I know is, I need to get the SATs over with, and prepare for my Mandarin Challenge Exam in February. Not so worried about the Chinese though, most of it is oral and aural, and the writing components are easy (at least to native speakers of Chinese).

Anyhow, life has not been great for me, apart from the fact that I aced a Literature exam, receiving the highest mark in the class. I thought the teacher hated my writing style. She picks favourites, everyone who takes her class knows it for a fact. Maybe now I'm one of her faves? Hmm...

I'm so fucking frustrated right now...